3.27.2008

I'm back...

I'm back. Sort of. I'll be honest- I've been avoiding my blog quite successfully for some time now. Why? Well-- it's simple. I was "tagged" by a couple of (well meaning) friends to make a list of things that are interesting about me... and I was just not up to the challenge. I'm ashamed to say that I kind of hit a wall, so to speak, and had my very own mid-mommyhood crisis. Sad, I know-- but let's just be honest: I change diapers and sing lullabies all day, every day... my big indulgence is buying my kid's clothes off the clearance rack at T.J. Maxx (sorry mom!) or going to the bathroom alone AND with the door shut... I don't think I've checked out a book or movie outside of the kid's section at our local library in over a year, and my major news sources are the tabloid covers along the grocery store aisle and the stack of parenting type magazines that I still subscribe to-- so...I'm finally willing to face it: I find myself somewhat at a loss when asked to write interesting things about the me that I am right now. Do I hate that-- yes...and no. Yes because everything inside of me and everything that I used to be screams that I should-- but no-- because (I've found after way too much contemplation) I really just don't. I LOVE that I am a (gasp!) stay-at-home mom. I love that my clothes never seem to stay clean long enough to leave the house without shame- let alone fit me well or have any semblance of fashion to them. I'm no longer ashamed to admit that I talk to my pediatrician more often that most of my nearest and dearest friends and family. And I'm finally ready to admit that I don't hate Barney-- no, I think that the big purple guy is really nice and he has a lot of good things to teach my kids-- and he is a great babysitter while I steal that 15 minute shower once in a blue moon. So--- I kinda like where I am in life right now, and I'm okay saying it. To all the adults in my life I may be a little bit of a drag-- but to 2 and 4 year olds I'm pretty darn fun, and right now, that is all that really matters. Tonight while I was laying with my kids after a long, hard day, Noah turned over and said "mommy, you are my bestest friend in the whole wide world"... and I thought my heart would just burst. In that moment, I figured it all out. I am where I am supposed to be, doing what I want to do most, and I'm doing a pretty good job at it. So-- interesting facts about me or not, I am still glad to be me... Noah's bestest friend in the whole wide world! :)

13 comments:

Tif said...

And that is what is truly important!! You are amazing!! :)

ammarler said...

I love you Ruth. This may sound silly but I cried the whole way through your post because you are right. Even though this is a dirty job I love being a mom too. It is the best job in the world and I can feel fulfilled. Thanks for your honesty it is exactly what I needed to hear this morning.

Jodie said...

Never doubt that you are not interesting or boring! You are a fabulous person! Being a mother is a wonderful, stressful job but is the most rewarding thing you will ever do. It is soooo important- don't let anyone ever tell you that you should be doing more. You are right where you are supposed to be!

Tara said...

That's so sweet. What a great way to answer a tag! You've got to admit that you are not only a great mommy, you are incredibly interesting to grown ups too. You are such a great friend.

Rebecca S said...

I'm glad you're back!

Chrissy said...

You have a great attitude! You are a great mom and I really admire you.

DeGooyer Family said...

What a great post - and I agree with everything that has been said!! YOU are such a wonderful mom, wife, and friend, and a good example to many people.

Melissa said...

Perfect, jsut what I needed to hear too. I tell you this often, but I really admire you. You are one of the funnest people I know, so laid back, compasionate and sincere. You are a great mom and that is something that a lot of people in this world could not be, even if they had all the stylish clothing and the hottest new car and the best job. You are for sure doing what is the most important thing in the world. :)

Erin said...

What a great post, seriously. After all you said, this is what I'm thinking: 1) I think you always look gorgeous, and it must be all natural since you are so busy 2) I've always thought you are the funnest mother and I try to be like you in that way! 3) I've admired how upbeat and happy you always are, and again, that must be your natural self shining through even though you have hectic and tiring days. I think you are just incredible.

TerriLyn said...

You are the best Ruth. You are such an amazing mom and I look up to you so much. We should play more. Tabi and I had a fantastic time over at your house playing last time. Thanks for being you. I love ya!

The Zickgraf Family Circus said...

I just take it as fact that since whatever you touch turns to gold (the clearest example being your sweet children), clearly you are amazing at whatever it is you choose to do. What you were in another life must have been impressive, but what you are here and now-- with so much less to give recognition to what you do and so many more insipid duties speaks even more loudly in your favor. You are an amazing woman and excel at all your responsibilities-- of which I think we all agree you take on too many! The rewards are quieter but hit so much harder and go so much deeper!

Melody said...

Can you please pass on some of your modesty to me? I have been pretty darn impressed with you from the very beginning. I think your mommying is pretty interesting otherwise I wouldn't keep checking your blog to see when you post something. You're a gem. Can't wait to get you here.
Love ya

Ashlie n Jonathan said...

Ruth, I just saw your blog on Valeries and decided to take a peek. You are amazing. I loved this post. I have many things in common in this regard, and I even like Barney. I know I am doing the right thing at the right time, I just wish I was good at it. Noah is a lucky ducky! Sing away! =) Thanks for letting me visit. - Ashlie Richey
PS. Tell alllll those wonderful Trenton and ward friends hello! We really miss it down there!