A Better Life

I'm a big Keith Urban fan. I love his upbeat music. Most of it is pretty mindless, but it's got a catchy modern feel and let's just be honest... what Idaho girl doesn't just love a good country tune? Tonight was a little hard for me. This is due-- in a very large part-- to the fact that I am a big fat baby. Finals weeks is upon us in full swing and Andrew has been up to his eyebrows studying for what has seemed like an eternity. I miss him. I miss him a lot. He is my best friend-- the one I want to curl up with, to hang out with, to just be with-- and I MISS HIM!!! Not only physically, but mentally too. I miss my husband. Andrew is not a habitual Sunday studier-- he avoided it completely during the first year and this year has avoided it when he could. But for the third week in a row he has reluctantly had to head out to the library to hit the books on what is supposed to be our day of rest. And dang it-- we could use a rest. I feel bad for the poor guy, but I am ashamed to say I feel bad for me too. We all need a break from this crazy road we call medical school and I do not hesitate to say that this week will not end soon enough.

But I digress. I don't typically listen to non-church music on Sundays- but tonight when he hit the road to hit the books I'll admit that I felt a little rebellious and decided to crank up the tunes while doing the Sunday dishes alone in a lame effort to drown out the fact that I wish my husband could stay with me tonight. So I fired up the old CD player and shoved in the first CD I could grab and- what do you know- good old Keith-e-poo was filling my room with a tune that really hit home-- here are the lyrics:

Friday night and the moon is high
I'm wide-awake just watchin' you sleep
And I promise you you're gonna have
More than just the things that you need
We ain't got much now, We're just startin' out
But I know somehow paradise is comin'

Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life

Oh now there's a place for you and me
Where we can dream as big as the sky
I know it's hard to see it now
But baby someday we're gonna fly
This road we're on, you know it might be long
But my faith is strong
It's all that really matters

Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life

Hey we're gonna leave this all behind us baby, wait and see
We're headed for a better life, you and me
We're gonna break the chains that bind and, finally we'll be free
We're gonna be the ones that have it all, you and me
Just hold on tight now baby
We're headed for a better life

So... this one is going out to you Andrew. I miss you babe. I miss the carefree days when the weekends were ours. I miss the days when we could snuggle all night and wake up late to a cup of hot chocolate and play phase ten all afternoon. I miss cooking together. I miss walking lazily-- headed nowhere-- hand in hand. I miss grocery shopping together. I miss just doing nothing-- together. I miss you. I miss us.

But fifth quarter is coming to an end-- and I think we can make it. I thought that last year would never end, but in retrospect it really did fly by. We can do this. We can make it. Just hold on tight babe-- we're headed for a better life.

A shout out to all of you doing this medical school thing too--- five more days and Thanksgiving break will be upon us. And hey-- at least we will have another thing to be REALLY TRULY grateful for this year! Add a feather to my thankful turkey, baby. Break times a comin'!


DeGooyer Family said...

Ruth - 5th quarter was the worst for us, too - hang in there!!

Melissa said...

Yeah, I am having a hard time too right now. I feel like I have been on the verge of crying for the past four days. Hang in there, its almost over.

The Zickgraf Family Circus said...

I basically feel like a single mom. I'm trying to decide if I should get out there, start dating again...

No, seriously, though. I hear it, baby!

Erin said...

I know - I'm like that too. I just love being with Jed all the time. Hang in there!

Rebecca S said...

Amen! The thing that's hard for me is that Israel gets so grumpy when he's stressed - I wished I'd planned ahead and was out of town for this week.

rebecca said...

5th was the worst, too. But let me tell ya, if you can just make it to the end of this year, good times are coming :) I've already seen Keith this year more than I ever did during those two years in Kirksville!!! You will have your weekends back for at least two years before you go to residency :) Hang in there, Ruth(and Andrew) :0)

Shuldberg said...

Yeah, the stress has definitly played its part this quarter. We, or family and relationship, is in need of this break coming up! It will be a time for us to "regroup" and prepare for the next quarter to haunt our lives! Thanks for the post Ruth!

Katherine said...

I'm sorry you're missing Andrew, and that he has to study all the time. But is it bad to say that I really enjoyed reading this because you speak for the group, I think. I miss my husband so much right now and it makes me feel better to know that I'm only one of many feeling this way. Thank goodness we all have each other.

Katherine said...

I like Tasheena's comment. You crack me up.

JBClawson said...

I had some lonely nights as well when Jake was studying. Rotations don't get any easier either with them not being able to choose their schedule. Keep your head up, and graduation will come sooner then what you think. We have 6 more months till graduation and I thought this day would never come. Don't forget that you can call me since I've been through it.

I am also a Keith Urban fan and I enjoy this song too! ~Becca

jayne said...

You hit the nail on the head Ruth! Hang in there. Enjoy the break, it is well deserved. One week of nothing but good old bonding time. Don't think about next quarter yet, just REALLY enjoy the break.

Natalie said...

Ruth-my sentiments exactly and I too feel like a single mom even though I know it breaks Ray's heart to hear me say that.
Ruth, you put it just right and I'm right there with you!